好文精選: 面對最高額比賽的勇氣 by Diego 'DieVentura' Ventura
At that point I took a look at my life and I realized that my intimate relationship wasn’t where I wanted it to be, my family relationships almost didn’t exist, I had almost no friends that I felt comfortable talking about these type of things with and I wasn’t being the leader my Poker students needed me to be. I could say I had a reasonable amount of money but my financial situation was a complete mess. I didn’t know how much I was making each month or how much I was spending. I realized I wasn’t living the life I had dreamt of. I found myself living in a place I didn’t dream of and finally realized that I wasn’t living the life I wanted.
I realized and finally what came up is that it wouldn’t matter how many tournaments I played or how much money I could win if I felt I was failing in the other areas of my life, especially in the relationships with my loved ones.
I realized that after my success in poker I wasn’t able to take risks in life or in other businesses because people saw me as a successful man and I was afraid to fail.
I was shocked by realizing that I had thought I was this confident, risky, successful man but that was very far from my reality. I realized this was only true in one part of my life, Poker. When it came to other things; I was not a confident man, or a risky man, or successful.
The last thing I realized is that I was being selfish, disconnected and closed off; I wasn’t being a team player for my family or in my intimate relationship. It became easy for me to criticize others and I wouldn’t talk to people that I didn’t think had anything to offer me. I saw how I was presenting myself to others and that the reason I was feeling empty is because I wasn’t giving anything to the relationships around me.
I get to be honest all the time, to be courageous and take risks in life like opening up to my family, to say something without caring if I look good or bad, whether I’m right or wrong. To show myself as vulnerable with people is a big risk for me, to show my students my leaks is to be vulnerable.